Ticket To Hell

      I’ve been in limbo in the past few days. Honestly, I have no idea why these things are repeatedly happening in my life. I really don’t know where I’m heading. I’m confused as always, what’s new. I hate this feeling; this feeling that keeps on coming back. I feel so all alone and isolated. When one aspect of my life is not good, expect the worst because the rest will certainly be affected and the results are devastating both physically and emotionally.

       My only complain is why me? My God I’ve been good, I’ve been fair all my life and this is what I get in return may it be with friends, family, work, fuck name it, I have them all in my list! I remember when I was my younger, my dad would say, when you grow up its important to be fair always. That’s what will keep you apart from the rest. Ok, I followed my dad and he was wrong.  Its not working, people are really born to take the bigger piece of the cake and they won’t stop until they don’t get every piece of everything. Maybe I’m the problem but why? All I did was to think of what they would feel first before minding my own feelings. Fair enough? Fuck, of course, 100 percent fair! But I’m not getting what is rightfully due for me.

       That has been the case always and it’s tiring. I’m tired of being pushed around by people who don’t even deserve any fair treatment or judgment. Life sucks and will continue to suck. If you all want hell on earth, then I’ll give it. I tried to avoid becoming who I was before but if you want it, I’ll bring it back and raise hell once again! 

Clinically Insane

Everyone has his own sad story to tell. Who cares! They say sharing your experiences can somehow ease the burden. Yah right in some way but it’s a risk we all have to take if we want to preserve our sanity in tact. Here are some ways to help you keep sane and live to tell your story.

1) Never attempt to share your problems to your mothers.
2) Listen to advices but push with what you believed in.
3) Hold your ground and don’t be distracted.
4) Blog ‘til you run out of words to say.
5) Smoke and drink all you want when you feel you’re breaking down into pieces.
6) Visit porn sites once in awhile to keep in touch with reality.
7) Think of things you’ll be trailing behind if someday you’ll lose your mind.
8) Forgive yourself.
9) Talk and think less.
10) Do things not because you’re sane.