Heaven Sent

       The moment you opened your eyes, my life completely changed. The life I was ready to give up suddenly was given hope. If  before I had no direction in life, now I’m happy to be slowly taking little steps to pick up my pieces again. Since you came I was given another chance to breathe and exhale life. Your eyes that greets me, your little fingers that wants to touch me…made me feel I exist, that you need me and you want to reach out and experience my love for the first time.

       I know your silence tells a lot. You may not be aware of the things that are happening but I know your feeling it right now and I’m sorry. But don’t worry my little angel; you don’t have to say something. I’m happy just seeing you smile back at me. I promise to take care of you…I’ll be here ready to listen and willing to accompany you because you’re the answer to my every prayer. Always remember, I’ll do everything just don’t leave me. Stay with me and we’ll journey life together.

      Tomorrow, if I’ll see you again…I’ll let you feel my warm touch, hold you tight and shower you with my genuine love. I hope you’re listening. Thank you for bringing back my happiness. You not only made my life complete…you also brought two hearts together even for a while. Thank you for bridging the gap that brought you to the world. 

Black Christmas

      Christmas season is just around the corner. I’m just wondering if this will just be another ordinary Christmas for me. I hate it, this feeling of guilt whenever this season is coming. Actually, I don’t feel excited. It’s a season to be jolly according to a song, but who cares. I’m in a black hole where Christmas doesn’t exist. Who the hell cares if I’m happy?

       I’m not to blame, I wanted it to be a white Christmas but she just won’t let it happen. Now, I got use to it, celebrating Christmas in my solitude when it’s supposed to be an affair together with family and friends. I don’t mind, celebrate it the way you want it, just don’t judge me why I feel this way.

       This is becoming harder and harder I know. Every year I want Christmas to end and just pass me by. I’m tired of feeling this way but it’s my only way to survive. Maybe in time I would slowly bring back the good things that this season has once given me. I miss my Christmas! I miss myself. I miss my life! When will I finally give in to what I really want? This hatred is killing me each passing day. I can’t forget and I just can’t forgive. The pain is still here. Christmas is fast approaching and the hatred keeps on building up. I have my reasons and I want it to stay until I finally find that special reason to let go of this pain that has been here for so many years. Well, I can’t stop Christmas from coming. Be it. This black Christmas will continue to exist and will forever plagued me for the rest of my life.

Vulnerable Heart

Amidst all my fears

Reasons has come along to conquer it all 

Vulnerable heart, who’s the culprit?

Indubitably, but hardly explained 

No one but the person named after this poem 

 

Gorgeously dressed up by fate

Aware not being destined by hate 

Resurrected & reflected with love & affection 

Carry me thru your fragile arms

Inculcate the pureness & sweet sensation 

Adore for I also come along to love you forevermore