Do Not Disturb

          I just love my work…a writer slash video editor slash photographer and an artist.  There’s no other place I can be comfortable in than being in the four corners of my workplace. Being there is truly an experience I would never trade with anything else in this world. I have my editing machine, I have my macbook, I have my soda, a sound system and a cool aircon to pamper myself while working. Oh of course I can never live without an Internet connection and a cellphone. What more can you ask for? Nothing!

            In this red and white-checkered room I can be myself. I can freely express my thoughts and my sentiments. With just a click of a button, a little imagination and my favorite soda on the side, I can transcend into another world through writing as my medium. In this room I’ve finished 15 legitimate movie scripts, a hundred or more television scripts, 80 plus poems, 50 songs and more than a thousand thoughts and compositions only I can understand. Though it’s meant to be read, I would still want to keep it ‘till the day I can already let go of them. I don’t think this is the right time to share everything. Of course I shared some of it, in my blogs, but the more interesting and complicated ones are yet to be seen and unfolded.

          Ok, writing is one way I can let go of my anxieties but there’s another thing that this room is capable of doing. It also serves as my outlet for my artistic endeavor, video editing! This is where I edit my projects, may it be wedding, avp’s, birthdays, thesis, short films, or documentaries, name it and this place can give the best output. Thank God I have this editing machine which I bought many years ago and has been constantly updated every year. Oh well, by editing videos I can relax my senses. When I’m all stressed out in my work as an Executive Producer, I usually run in this place for refuge. Though its still work here, it’s kinda different world, a place I can call my own, a sanctuary where I can reload, stand up and face tomorrow with a new aura and disposition.

           Being in this tiny, little big world is something I can be proud of. With this haven around I can do just about anything. I just hope that someday, the one person whom I wanted to spend the rest of my life with can appreciate this world I call my own. Finding her and being with her in this world would finally make this place complete and truly a world worth living. 

Black Hole

As I walk down the city

The pavements start to lose its beauty

Coz every little step increases the pain

How can I possibly stop the rain?

When all I can see is a train

 

The walls we built

Keeps on adding to our guilt

How can we possibly restore?

The foundation we had before

Tell me more, to complete this metaphor

 

The stars in the night

That use to be our guiding light

Is now starting to fade

Can you give me this aide?

That I’ve been wanting to be made

 

Bring me back to reality

Where I can regain my stability

For I don’t know exactly how

To continue with this vow

That is killing me now

Payback Time

       Truth always hurts; whether it was said in an amiable or ill-mannered way still it would somehow hurt you in whichever way it was delivered. That’s why sometimes things are better off unsaid. But then again, suppressing one’s real intention, thought or feeling is not always a good choice. So if you feel like saying what you want to say whether it’s good or bad, join me and shout it loud. These are the things we almost want to say in front of people we hate but we just can’t.

1) Boss: “You suck big time, who do you think you are? God?”

2) Girlfriend: “Stick to one man and stop bitching around.”

3) Parents: “I’m all grown up, leave me alone and let me live my life.”

4) Bestfriend: “Damn it, that’s my girlfriend you’ve been hitting on.”

5) Co-employee: “You’re face is synonymous to our bosses’ ass.”

6) Wife: “Mother fu**er stop faking it for Christ’s sake.” (Orgasm)

7) Girlfriend’s Girl Friend: “Oh my God, stop flirting…you want it? Go get it.”

8) Gossiper: “ Mind your own business losers! I’m ready for my next promotion”

9) Detractors: “Why don’t you go to the comfort room, open the bowl, stick your stinking face and flush your own.”

10) Ex-Girlfriend / Boyfriend: “Asshole, now look what you’ve been missing.” 

Life's Greatest Surprises

       I never thought that I would be contented with who I am now and what I have achieved in the last 29 years of my existence. I must admit there is always this diverse individual who is always better, who is more successful and who is always good looking. How pathetic that there is someone smarter than you, taller, more gifted and who has a better life.
 
      Thank God, I always wake up buoyant and ready to face each and every struggling day of my life. Because, now I realized that it’s healthier to appreciate things that you have than to look for something you will never have. Being contented and satisfied are the keys to finally be happy.

      Tomorrow will always bring a brighter day… a new day to explore boundless opportunity. So why waste every single day of your life crying over spilled milk. Waking up happy everyday that for me…has been one of life's greatest surprises.

Bitter Sweet Goodbye

Memories of you linger

As I remove this ring on my finger

I never imagined this would end in anger

The years I thought would be longer

 

We had it all

We were standing tall

Gave everything and then you fall

Can you blame me if I don’t answer you call?

 

We vowed to endure everything together

Now we don’t even want to see each other

How can I be a good father?

When I’m far away holding another

 

I was hoping we could somehow fix

The love until everything mix

You run away and left me by six

Now I’m alone in the middle of these bricks

 

We may lose our way and weep

But this love we had I’ll always keep

Though this pain is really deep

I’ll continue to breathe to finish this trip 

Why I'm In Love With You

       I’ve known her for only a month now. She’s beautiful, charming and smart. But, there’s a but…we don’t actually connect. I mean literally we don’t.  We hardly communicate, yah right texting is one medium but I want it to be more personal. Unfortunately, I guess this is not the right time for this feeling to blossom. But then again I still find myself falling for this special girl. Here are the reasons I must admit, why I’m madly in love with this angel sent from above!

1) She’s independent and can very well speak her mind. In other words she’s smart and intellectual. Those traits really turn me on.

2) That mole in her right cheek is killing me. It’s so sexy and completes her perfect facial features. Impressive!

3) She’s adventurous. She likes water a lot, the element I always look for in a girl. Finally I found someone I can share my love for water.

4) She loves fast foods. Honestly, most women opt for fine dining but she’s different. Hmm…Good burgers, love to share it with her.

5) She’s a go-getter. I think it shows from what she has achieved in life. I would never want to spend the rest of my life with someone who has not established what she wants in her life.

6) She’s sweet in her only little ways. That’s good, not giving it all out. Saving the best for last always.

7) She’s very appreciative…one trait that keeps me coming back for more.

8) She loves poems and arts, perfect combination I guess.

9) She’s an Aquarian, probably the best sign for a Libran like me!

10) She’s a total package; someone who is established in life, she has this perfect smile, she knows exactly what she wants in life, she’s adorable, beautiful and I can sense that she really is the one for me. Intuition I guess. I just hope she’s the one.

 

 

Cry Baby No More

      Sometimes we feel miserable because of the unpleasant things that are happening in our lives. We often isolate ourselves thinking that we’re different and that everybody seems to be happy except ourselves. Well, this is true I guess. I always find myself in this situation. I would scream and even question the heavens for problems that have been coming to me. I almost always ask, why me? There are hundred billions of people in world, am I the chosen one?

      For years that has been my dilemma, not actually facing my problems but rather complaining first instead of finding ways to solve them. I would cry like a baby and let things happen without me doing anything. But I guess fate has its own way of changing everything. As I continue my journey in finding my true happiness, I encountered many more important lessons in life that has helped me and in a way improved my perspective about what life is really all about. From my journey, I noticed that I was not alone. I’m not the only one who has a problem. My problem is just small for me to complain about. I’ve seen bigger problems from other people but they are not complaining. They are still standing though struggling but still battling every second to overcome their problems. Actually compared to them I must say I’m luckier. My problems that I have been complaining are not even half or close to what they are encountering now. Boom, there I realized that I’m still lucky and that I have to be thankful for whatever that comes my way. I’ve been an asshole and yes I will still be one but I’ve learned my lessons.  I will not change everything but would be more mature in dealing with my problems. Thank God, I’m still breathing, one thing I could be thankful about.

      Problems will come and arise, we can’t control them but we can overcome them for sure. Dealing it the right way I guess is the best way to win it over. Though hard but at the end of it, is a life fulfilling accomplishment that you were able to face your problem and overcome it. Huh, again, thank God I’m still alive.

We All Live In Capital A

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and post it. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real, nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: Arvin

2. A four letter word: Ants

3. A boy's name: André

4. A girl's name: Agatha

5. An occupation: Archeologist

6. A colour: Apricot

7. Something you wear: Air Jordan Shoes

8. A food: Asparagus

9. Something found in the bathroom: Albatross

10. A place: Argentina

11. A reason for being late: Alcoholic

12. Something you shout: Asshole!

13. A movie title: Armageddon

14. Something you drink: Absolut Vodka

15. A musical group: After Image

16. An animal: Alligator

17. A street name: Avenida

18. A type of car: Audi

19. Title of a song: Again

25 Things About Me

1. I am a Libran, which explains my not so positive perceptions in life - I can be sickeningly sweet one moment, then disgustingly rotten the next.

2. I am blessed with great friends who can put up with my neurotic episodes (the nicer ones even pretend not to notice them).

3. It is tough to see me as the shy type of person since you will often find me sitting quietly in my favorite corner, distantly sniping.

4. I have been known for my tele-marathons. I can talk on the phone for ten straight hours. Just name the topic: I can go from Mighty Man & Yak to economic inflation to the principles of communism to government policies to Katrina Halili and more.

5. I am proud to say that I am a reformed coffee junkie, Tequila addict, World Wrestling Entertainment fanatic and Cristine Reyes stalker.

6. I seriously consider invading the wrestling world. (WWE)

7. I know the lyrics of the songs Is it Ok if I Call You Mine and With A Smile by heart .

8. I always keep a small notebook in my bag.

9. The biggest cash prize I won was for the script I made in 2001. It got me to places! Hehehe!

10. I love to smoke! Marlboro Reds is my brand, an average of one pack a day!

11. I believe that all things happen for a reason.

12. I'm a big fan of "The Tank" Noli Locsin.

13. I'm a true blue, 100% Whoop asser!

14. I have a small production house in Pasig where I usually go to unwind and relax because there I get to edit weddings and other happy events.

15. Writing has been my passion, my life and my world in the last 20 years of my not so blessed life.

16. I love perfumes so much. I have a perfume collection in my blue and black inspired room. Name it, I've got it from all kinds of Calvin Klein, Polo Sport, Lacoste, Benetton, Tommy Hilfiger, Kenneth Cole, Cool Water, Fahrenheit, Dolce and Gabbana, Hugo Boss, Versace, Giordio Armani, Gucci, Roberto Cavalli, Christian Dior and counting.

17. I watch an average of 10 films a week. It so makes me feel alive and rejuvenated. Here are some of my favorites...The Lake House, The Notebook, Music and Lyrics, Just Like Heaven, Philadelphia, Untamed Hearts, Walk In A Cloud, Sleepless In Seattle, Sabrina, City Of Angels, An Affair to Remember, Someone Like You, Wuthering Heights and Breakfast at Tiffany's.

18. I love the company of girls because I grew up in an environment where I see them almost everyday. eat, play and communicate with them. That's why it's easy for me to understand how they feel and how they want things to be.

19. My father died when I was 18 so at an early stage I was exposed to early responsibilities. I handled our business while studying in college and sacrificed a lot of my adolescent life.

20. I love writing poems, you can check my multiply account to know what I'm talking about. sniperdope@multiply.com/journal!

21. I'm a very sensitive type of person. I don't take criticisms lightly. I get offended easily especially when I know that the one who has offended me is not even close to what I have achieved in life.

22.I want to finally make into reality (movie / film) the 15 legitimate and original scripts I’ve written in the last 7 years of my writing career.

23.I want to somehow see my kid grow on whatever way into the person I am now, reluctant, accepting, generous and sensitive to the need of others.

24.I want to experience a real, complete and an accepting family I can call my own.

25. I can be your worst nightmare given the situation and the right circumstances.

50 Greatest Romantic Movies

1. Casablanca - 1942 (Michael Curtiz)
     
       "Of all the gin joints in all the towns in all the world, she walks into mine..." 
        we'll always have bogey and bergman light up every best "romantic" movies list today and for posterity,. this masterpiece only gets better as time goes by...  
       



2. The Shop Around The Corner - 1940  (Ernst Lubitsch) 

      Klara Novak and Alfred Kralik are loving pen-pals, they're so into each other's letters and plan to "meet up" at a restaurant. What they do not know is they actually work side by side in a local retail shop and THEY HATE EACH other's guts. Their meeting in the finale is one of the sweetest "romantic" scenes tinseltown has ever seen.     


        

3. The Apartment - 1960 (Billy Wilder)

        The quintessential underdog love story that never fails to
uplift a sagging feeling. 
        C.C. Baxter is just another Joe in a large insurance company. He's been secretly in love with Fran Kubelik, a pretty elevator woman in their building. The problem is Fran Kubelik is in love with C.C. Baxter's boss Mr. Sheldrake who is both lecherous, and married, in that order.  

  


4. Roman Holiday - 1953 (William Wyler)
     A princess bored with her fairy-tale life and an erstwhile  scheming newspaper man spend a day amidst the beauty of Rome. Audrey Hepburn dazzled in here, winning a best actress trophy in her very first major role. And Gregory Peck was never more charming. 

Princess Ann: "I've never been alone with a man before, even with my dress on. With my dress off, it's MOST unusual."    




5. Cyrano de Bergerac - 1990 (Jean-Paul Rappeneau)
   
      The classic tale of unrequited love. What can be more romantic than that?
     Gerard Depardieu plays Cyrano, a famed poet whose scathing poems about the hypocrisies of France's Elite make him a romantic figure of courage and truth. But this courage that is so admired is non-existent when it comes to the object of his affections- Roxanne. Afraid that she might find his hideous nose too appalling, cyrano is reduced to a secret admirer. He consoles himself by helping another suitor of Roxanne, Christian, by writing beautful poems and passing them off as christian's own.  
   


     

6. It's A Wonderful Life - 1946 (Frank Capra)

     George Bailey is a likable man who has spent his life putting the interest of others ahead of his own. He had a great career ahead of him but chose to stay in his little town to continue helping other people. Whhen he encounters problems after problems and contemplates on committing suicide, an angel descends from heaven.
    This is more of a Christmas movie than a love story but what the heck! it's my list anyway.. =)   



7. Only Angels Have Wings - 1939 (Howard Hawks)

        What's a "Romance" list without Cary Grant??? "Only Angels have Wings" may not be his most recognized "Romantic Movie" but for some reason this movie is my favorite of all his movies, maybe because it features how camaraderie among men is often mistaken by women  for insensitivity and outright machismo. In reality men, has a radically different attitude towards friendship and love.
    This movie is under appreciated, really a gem worth seeing.   





8. In The Mood For Love - 2000 (Wong Kar Wai)
 
      Wong Kar Wai's hypnotic movie will burn itself into memory for a long long time... 
      Two neighbors, Mr Chow and Mrs Chan, suspect their respective partners of having an illicit affair. The two neightbors spend some time with each other and gradually fall in love themselves. While their partners indulge themselves, they realize the wrongness of their feelings and try "very" hard "not to be like them"...   




9. Sunrise - 1927 (F.W. Murnau)          

         Probably the greatest silent movie about love ever made. If you think a silent film cannot make you cry. This is the proof it can. 

        A farmer is tempted and cajoled by a prostitute to murder his loving wife. The farmer then led his wife to believe they're going on a boat trip to the city to see the sights but truly his nefarious plan is to kill his wife in the boat. But just as he is ready to do his wife in, he realizes the evil of it and realizes the great love he still has for his wife.

 
        

10. City Lights - 1931 (Charles Chaplin)

           In my opinion Charles Chaplin's greatest and most memorable work. 

           The Tramp falls in love with a blind flower girl. A friendship the tramp had with an eccentric millionaire presents the only chance he has to give the "light" back to the girl. Memorable for a lot of hilarious slapstick, but most incomparable with its endearing ending... 


The Next 40 films on my list:

11. The Umbrellas of Cherbourg - 1964
12. The African Queen - 1951
13. West Side Story 1961
14. Annie Hall - 1977
15. Children Of Paradise - 1945
16. Now, Voyager - 1942
17. Atonement - 2007
18. The Ghost And Mrs. Muir - 1947
19. My Fair Lady - 1964
20. Pride And Prejudice - 2005
21. The Princess Bride - 1987
22. An Affair to Remember - 1957
23. Groundhod Day - 1993
24. Love Actually - 2003
25. His Girl Friday - 1940
26. How To Steal A Million - 1966
27. It Happened One Night - 1934
28. Say Anything - 1989
29. My Favorite Wife - 1940
30. Play It again, Sam - 1972
31. Breakfast At Tiffany's - 1961
32. Waitress - 2007
33. Before Sunrise - 1995 
34. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind - 2004
35. Amelie - 2001
36. When Harry Met Sally - 1989
37. The Goodbye Girl - 1977
38. Harold And Maude - 1971
39. My Man Godfrey - 1936
40. The Notebook - 2004
41. The Bridges of Madison County - 1995
42. True Romance - 1993
43. Serendipity - 2001
44. Win A Date With Tad Hamilton - 2004
45. Il Postino - 1994
46. Brief Encounter - 1945
47. Sideways - 2004
48. Hiroshima Mon Amour - 1959
49. Frankie And Johnny - 1991
50. It Could Happen To You - 1994

Deceitful Grin

        I’ve seen many smiles before. Smiles that have beautiful faces--attractive from the outside empty in the inside. It’s quite tricky to understand but true in many ways. So, what am I trying to say? It’s as simple as not all beautiful smiles deserve a second look or let us put it this way, don’t be deceived by a smile because it can make your world crushing without you even noticing it.  With that, here are some tips why you should avoid these deceitful smiles if in case you see them while minding your business.

1) They smile beautifully because they need something from you, a favor maybe or something to satisfy their desires and cravings.

2) They give out their best smiles for rebound. To finally get over somebody, they will use their tempting smiles to win over another man and use him so it will be easy for them to forget everything about their exes.

3) They smile their hearts out to get your attention and eventually fall to their worldly intentions and plans.

4) These individuals smile intentionally to boost their confidence and make others feel their superior over them.

5) People who smiles beautifully in malls and other public places are mostly callboys and prostitutes so don’t be deceived!

6) Beautiful women with beautiful faces and enticing smile are usually insane and power trippers.

7) Most people give their best smiles to make you feel comfortable, eventually making you fall and at the end dumped you because there’s a new one waiting to be victimized.

8) They smile elegantly to get even over a painful and agonizing experience.

9) Many of them display their most inviting smile to get the next big fish that come their way, if you know what I’m saying.

10) Lastly, they smile their best for the simple reason of just fooling you and laughing out real hard after seeing you in your lowest point. Fair enough? Real assholes in the making so don’t be fooled!