Do Not Disturb

          I just love my work…a writer slash video editor slash photographer and an artist.  There’s no other place I can be comfortable in than being in the four corners of my workplace. Being there is truly an experience I would never trade with anything else in this world. I have my editing machine, I have my macbook, I have my soda, a sound system and a cool aircon to pamper myself while working. Oh of course I can never live without an Internet connection and a cellphone. What more can you ask for? Nothing!

            In this red and white-checkered room I can be myself. I can freely express my thoughts and my sentiments. With just a click of a button, a little imagination and my favorite soda on the side, I can transcend into another world through writing as my medium. In this room I’ve finished 15 legitimate movie scripts, a hundred or more television scripts, 80 plus poems, 50 songs and more than a thousand thoughts and compositions only I can understand. Though it’s meant to be read, I would still want to keep it ‘till the day I can already let go of them. I don’t think this is the right time to share everything. Of course I shared some of it, in my blogs, but the more interesting and complicated ones are yet to be seen and unfolded.

          Ok, writing is one way I can let go of my anxieties but there’s another thing that this room is capable of doing. It also serves as my outlet for my artistic endeavor, video editing! This is where I edit my projects, may it be wedding, avp’s, birthdays, thesis, short films, or documentaries, name it and this place can give the best output. Thank God I have this editing machine which I bought many years ago and has been constantly updated every year. Oh well, by editing videos I can relax my senses. When I’m all stressed out in my work as an Executive Producer, I usually run in this place for refuge. Though its still work here, it’s kinda different world, a place I can call my own, a sanctuary where I can reload, stand up and face tomorrow with a new aura and disposition.

           Being in this tiny, little big world is something I can be proud of. With this haven around I can do just about anything. I just hope that someday, the one person whom I wanted to spend the rest of my life with can appreciate this world I call my own. Finding her and being with her in this world would finally make this place complete and truly a world worth living. 

Black Hole

As I walk down the city

The pavements start to lose its beauty

Coz every little step increases the pain

How can I possibly stop the rain?

When all I can see is a train

 

The walls we built

Keeps on adding to our guilt

How can we possibly restore?

The foundation we had before

Tell me more, to complete this metaphor

 

The stars in the night

That use to be our guiding light

Is now starting to fade

Can you give me this aide?

That I’ve been wanting to be made

 

Bring me back to reality

Where I can regain my stability

For I don’t know exactly how

To continue with this vow

That is killing me now

Payback Time

       Truth always hurts; whether it was said in an amiable or ill-mannered way still it would somehow hurt you in whichever way it was delivered. That’s why sometimes things are better off unsaid. But then again, suppressing one’s real intention, thought or feeling is not always a good choice. So if you feel like saying what you want to say whether it’s good or bad, join me and shout it loud. These are the things we almost want to say in front of people we hate but we just can’t.

1) Boss: “You suck big time, who do you think you are? God?”

2) Girlfriend: “Stick to one man and stop bitching around.”

3) Parents: “I’m all grown up, leave me alone and let me live my life.”

4) Bestfriend: “Damn it, that’s my girlfriend you’ve been hitting on.”

5) Co-employee: “You’re face is synonymous to our bosses’ ass.”

6) Wife: “Mother fu**er stop faking it for Christ’s sake.” (Orgasm)

7) Girlfriend’s Girl Friend: “Oh my God, stop flirting…you want it? Go get it.”

8) Gossiper: “ Mind your own business losers! I’m ready for my next promotion”

9) Detractors: “Why don’t you go to the comfort room, open the bowl, stick your stinking face and flush your own.”

10) Ex-Girlfriend / Boyfriend: “Asshole, now look what you’ve been missing.” 

Life's Greatest Surprises

       I never thought that I would be contented with who I am now and what I have achieved in the last 29 years of my existence. I must admit there is always this diverse individual who is always better, who is more successful and who is always good looking. How pathetic that there is someone smarter than you, taller, more gifted and who has a better life.
 
      Thank God, I always wake up buoyant and ready to face each and every struggling day of my life. Because, now I realized that it’s healthier to appreciate things that you have than to look for something you will never have. Being contented and satisfied are the keys to finally be happy.

      Tomorrow will always bring a brighter day… a new day to explore boundless opportunity. So why waste every single day of your life crying over spilled milk. Waking up happy everyday that for me…has been one of life's greatest surprises.

Bitter Sweet Goodbye

Memories of you linger

As I remove this ring on my finger

I never imagined this would end in anger

The years I thought would be longer

 

We had it all

We were standing tall

Gave everything and then you fall

Can you blame me if I don’t answer you call?

 

We vowed to endure everything together

Now we don’t even want to see each other

How can I be a good father?

When I’m far away holding another

 

I was hoping we could somehow fix

The love until everything mix

You run away and left me by six

Now I’m alone in the middle of these bricks

 

We may lose our way and weep

But this love we had I’ll always keep

Though this pain is really deep

I’ll continue to breathe to finish this trip 

Why I'm In Love With You

       I’ve known her for only a month now. She’s beautiful, charming and smart. But, there’s a but…we don’t actually connect. I mean literally we don’t.  We hardly communicate, yah right texting is one medium but I want it to be more personal. Unfortunately, I guess this is not the right time for this feeling to blossom. But then again I still find myself falling for this special girl. Here are the reasons I must admit, why I’m madly in love with this angel sent from above!

1) She’s independent and can very well speak her mind. In other words she’s smart and intellectual. Those traits really turn me on.

2) That mole in her right cheek is killing me. It’s so sexy and completes her perfect facial features. Impressive!

3) She’s adventurous. She likes water a lot, the element I always look for in a girl. Finally I found someone I can share my love for water.

4) She loves fast foods. Honestly, most women opt for fine dining but she’s different. Hmm…Good burgers, love to share it with her.

5) She’s a go-getter. I think it shows from what she has achieved in life. I would never want to spend the rest of my life with someone who has not established what she wants in her life.

6) She’s sweet in her only little ways. That’s good, not giving it all out. Saving the best for last always.

7) She’s very appreciative…one trait that keeps me coming back for more.

8) She loves poems and arts, perfect combination I guess.

9) She’s an Aquarian, probably the best sign for a Libran like me!

10) She’s a total package; someone who is established in life, she has this perfect smile, she knows exactly what she wants in life, she’s adorable, beautiful and I can sense that she really is the one for me. Intuition I guess. I just hope she’s the one.

 

 

Cry Baby No More

      Sometimes we feel miserable because of the unpleasant things that are happening in our lives. We often isolate ourselves thinking that we’re different and that everybody seems to be happy except ourselves. Well, this is true I guess. I always find myself in this situation. I would scream and even question the heavens for problems that have been coming to me. I almost always ask, why me? There are hundred billions of people in world, am I the chosen one?

      For years that has been my dilemma, not actually facing my problems but rather complaining first instead of finding ways to solve them. I would cry like a baby and let things happen without me doing anything. But I guess fate has its own way of changing everything. As I continue my journey in finding my true happiness, I encountered many more important lessons in life that has helped me and in a way improved my perspective about what life is really all about. From my journey, I noticed that I was not alone. I’m not the only one who has a problem. My problem is just small for me to complain about. I’ve seen bigger problems from other people but they are not complaining. They are still standing though struggling but still battling every second to overcome their problems. Actually compared to them I must say I’m luckier. My problems that I have been complaining are not even half or close to what they are encountering now. Boom, there I realized that I’m still lucky and that I have to be thankful for whatever that comes my way. I’ve been an asshole and yes I will still be one but I’ve learned my lessons.  I will not change everything but would be more mature in dealing with my problems. Thank God, I’m still breathing, one thing I could be thankful about.

      Problems will come and arise, we can’t control them but we can overcome them for sure. Dealing it the right way I guess is the best way to win it over. Though hard but at the end of it, is a life fulfilling accomplishment that you were able to face your problem and overcome it. Huh, again, thank God I’m still alive.