"Expectator"

         Spectator! How in the world can I miss this word? For crying out loud! It’s as simple as the words apple and orange and I screwed it up. Honestly, I didn’t notice that it was spelled wrong.  I was viewing the whole episode lightly that night. I was confident then and very much comfortable. The editing bay was calm and everyone was relaxed and undisturbed. Human error? Yah right but it’s not acceptable! This is television! There are no rooms for serious or should I say major errors just like what I’ve committed. It’s an unintentional mistake, negligence and carelessness on my part. I don’t blame anyone and I take full responsibility of the error!

          Maybe for some I would look like I’m over reacting on what has just transpired. I really don’t care. I felt humiliated and embarrassed reading negative text messages from my comrades about the incident. It’s a minimal mistake all right but it meant a lot to me and to the show. My credibility was on questioned. Trust was on the line. Lastly, my confidence plunged down to a negative one hundred after the humiliating incident.

            I don’t know how to react! I’m in shocked and I can’t think straight. I was thinking of the negative comments I would be getting to other people. The error was real. It actually happened and almost ruined my reputation. I’m very much emotional especially when my craft is on the line. I hate negative comments and criticisms because I’m not used to it. I’m used to hearing positive things and praises towards my work. Huh! I just can’t get over it! Last night was really a nightmare. But as Ma’am Patty would say. “What’s done is done. Tomorrow is another day!”  I just hope so!