Monday, April 6, 2009

Artificial Euphoria


        I was browsing at my emails and my accounts in the net when all of a sudden I saw this very lovely smile. I know I’ve seen this smile before but I just couldn’t remember where and when. Anyway, it was euphoric; I really don’t know what to think that very moment. It’s as if I knew her all the while and all I need is that smile to confirm the attachment that has been pulling me closer to her.

         Ok, I composed myself and after awhile I was already adding her to my account. Honestly, I’m not sure whether she will accept my friend request or not since she doesn’t know me at all.  Ok I let time pass by, after 30 minutes I was amazed that she actually added me up plus a message along with the confirmation. Huh! I was really happy that time. It was like heaven, imagine she just added me and it was like I won in a lottery. I was really anxious and started to answer her queries. She was asking me how did I find her. I replied and after that as what they always say, the rest is history. We exchanged views, opinions and a little or should I say a portion of our personal lives. It was a series of replies that almost lasted for hours. Ok seems everything is going in the right direction. She was really very accommodating and friendly, so divine! I thought it would never end. I just did and it ended, the happiness just dipped down when she said she would be marrying soon. What the fuck!!! My world turned 360 degrees in 3 seconds making it a real hard knock out on my part. I was stuck for a moment, had my cigarette and snapped again after realizing what I’ve just read. Huh! I almost forgot that I just meet her now and it’s no big deal! Ok, actually I’m glad she’s honest and proud that she will be marrying soon, that is something. I mean a girl being proud not only of her soon to be wedding but subconsciously of her man as well. That is really something for me, a perfect lady proud of her man! Surely that would be the lady I would want to walk down in the altar.

          I was in cloud nine, now reality is slowly inching back in. Welcome to the planet, welcome to reality and let go of dreamland. This is the real world and it’s about time to wake up and face reality! I should be happy after all, I met her, I was able to converse with her and even felt ecstasy for a couple of hours again. Hmmmm…priceless! It’s what you call…artificial euphoria! 

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