Frequent Visitors

         My life has been an open book, that’s the way I want it to be. I want to be transparent to the world, sharing what I feel and trying to let people understand why I’m feeling this way. It’s not about wanting to get a reaction; it’s more of letting it all out so I can live the next day.

           I must admit that life hasn’t been good to me. I’ve been living in a shell full of hatred and everybody knows that, well to those who have been reading my blogs. I’ve been honest and true to whatever I feel. Ok I’ll get to the point; I’ve been wanting to be happy. I wanted to live life to the fullest but every time I tried, I almost always fail. I want to meet someone worthy of my love, but again, I always fail. I always end up meeting people whose purpose is just to prolong the agony of wanting be finally happy. I had it all. I’ve seen these frequent visitors coming in and out of my life. For almost 2 years now I’ve been given the chance to meet many girls but they all end up like the rest who just knock in and never enter the door. They are all beautiful with great personalities. They make me happy, I made them happy as well but time just won’t be right. There are many factors why these relationships won’t actually work.  Honestly, I really don’t know if I can be happy again. Given all these opportunities, I really can’t ask for more. Well, maybe in time, someone could actually stay for good and never leave that door again. I’m just hoping…I’m really hoping.

         I believe in the saying that somewhere out there, there’s this one person truly for you and that you just have to be patient because surely that person will find his/ her way just to reach you. Ok, I want to be true. I want life to be as real as it can be. I just hope that the next visitor who will knock at my door would be the last and would stay here in my arms for good. It’s a wish, a dream that I know will someday come true. Hope floats…