Gentle Giant

           It’s almost always flattering when someone praises you because of your achievements and good work. But is sickening when someone criticizes you without any basis at all. It’s even worst when you know you’re doing nothing wrong and still that person wants to bury you six feet below to the point of leaving you with nothing to be proud of. Life really is unfair, there’s nothing I can do about that. If only I can be that insensitive guy, I wish I am but I’m not, then I wouldn’t be affected this way.

            I don’t want you to pity me because I’m not the type who will just allow this kind of degradation to happen to me. Just like a general who goes in a war with a plan, I’m more than ready and I know this day would come. The day when I know I have to face the ghost which has long been haunting me that I’ve been keeping in my closet for so many years. I don’t burst out easily but when I do, I can be your worst nightmare. I just hate this kind of feeling. I just don’t want to be the man I was before. But if its needed, I’m more than willing to shift gears and battle them all out in this game that they know they are good at. But then again, I’m reformed and more accepting now.

            I love a peaceful life; this is how I’m leaving my life now. So to finally leave these things behind, I’d rather choose to be quiet and calm. I’m a fighter but I love my life now. I don’t want to ruin it just like what I did before. You may think I’m a big loser for not fighting back, then be it. I’ve already wasted a lot of my time combating these kinds of people in the past and I don’t want to lose this serene and tranquil state that I almost wasn’t able to find that I’m happily experiencing now.