Sometimes life can be very fragile and complicated. Huh! What a relief? Finally, I’m back to my usual form because I’m blogging my thoughts once again. It’s been awhile since I last entered a blog. I just miss writing and freely expressing my sentiments. I tried to write several times before just to have a new entry but I just can’t do it. Honestly, nothing is popping into my mind…nothing is coming out of my imaginative senses. I could have written a lot but like any other writer, I can’t write something if I’m not in the mood or worst not inspired.
Anyway, I’m here and what can I say. In last few weeks I’ve been preoccupied with things that concern my managing skills. I must admit that managing people is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life. It’s stressing and sometimes can really get out of hand. Imagine leading a team with people having different personalities and attitudes. It’s a nightmare believe me. But I’ve been trying hard to balance everything, from being damn objective and emotionally fair to my subordinates. However, there are times that you have to break several rules to stay on the top of your game, if you know what I’m saying. This is where the problem starts. I for myself is a self-confessed emotional freak who gives more attention to emotions rather than facts of life. What can I do? I was born like that but I’m doing something about it.
Honestly speaking, I’m very impatient, I like quick results and I want my staff to work exactly the way I do. That is how my superiors trained me. I’m a perfectionist and I don’t want people who can’t deliver. That’s why whenever they fail to reach my expectations, I easily get irritated and most of the time emotional and irrational. I would scold them and say things that sometimes are very hurtful and insensitive in nature. Okay, they are only humans and they are not perfect; I’ll buy that but what a lame excuse. If I can do my job well, why can’t they do theirs? I’ve been in their shoes before but I didn’t mess up big time just like what they are doing now. They are so unprofessional with their work. They don’t value time and even their reputation. I just don’t get it. I also had my fair share of mistakes in my work, who hasn’t? But I learn from them and promise not to repeat the same mistake again. If only they would understand where I’m coming then there will be no problem. I only hope for the best. God help them!
Okay the problem is real and is worsening everyday. But I’m trying real hard to change the perception of these people on their work. I want them to be as dedicated as I am before it’s too late. I’m not being arrogant, but I’ve been there before and I don’t want them to commit the same mistake that almost ended my career!
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