All the while I thought everything would be ok after a night of uninterrupted conversation, a good dinner and worry free workday. Huh, I was so so wrong, it only worsens the situation. I’m not sure if what I’m feeling this very moment is right. I feel so left out and unimportant or maybe I’m just paranoid of something I couldn’t do anything about. Again, for so many times in my life I felt really helpless. What the hell is wrong with me? How can I not do anything for someone I want so badly? For Christ sake, who the hell she thinks she is or maybe not? All I know is that, I’m so upset, confused and disorganized!
I’m now sucked up in my computer; irate on things I could have done something about if only I tried to make it all happen. But how can you be pushing on something if you’re not even sure of if that person is in line or close to the path where you’re actually heading? Give me a break! Common! All I wanted was to be heard. I don’t want to ask for any pity because I don’t need it. For crying out loud, can you be true to whatever is inside your heart. Well, I don’t want to prove anything with this stupid, extraneous and immaterial blog that I’m writing now, I just want to let it out. I want the world to know how upset I am! That’s it, so don’t you dare judge me!
In my entire life, I’ve never pleaded this way. I never asked for anything in return as long as I know where I’m standing. But my situation now is so unexplainable. I’m like a balloon freely flying; going to whichever the wind wants me to go. Well, I’m not in anyway be feeling better sometime soon. All I know is I’m upset and disappointed on the things that are happening in my life now. This thing really is pissing me off.
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