Dying In Pleasure

          If you have only a month to live what are the things you would want to accomplish before finally accepting death and giving into his glory and divine power? Well, quite a difficult question to find answers to but I guess wanting something before dying is one way we can completely understand what this vicious cycle called life and death are all about. Here are the 10 things I would want before leaving this cruel world behind. You? What’s yours?

1) I want to finally make into reality (movie / film) the 15 legitimate and original scripts I’ve written in the last 7 years of my writing career.

2) I want the people around me to be independent over me so when my time comes it will not be difficult for them to move on with their lives.

3) I want to experience a real, complete and an accepting family I can call my own.

4) I want to be known as a respectable journalist who has done his part in promoting responsible journalism.

5) I want to somehow see my kid grow on whatever way into the person I am now, reluctant, accepting, generous and sensitive to the need of others.

6) I want to travel to Spain and Italy with my special someone.

7) I want to have my own casino and recreational park named after me.

8) I want to attend mass each and every day of my last remaining days on Earth.

9) I want to have sex with all the girls I’ve been masturbating to in the 20 years of my active sex life.

10) I want to smoke playing my guitar in an isolated virgin forest with only a single lamp accompanying me as I face my final judgment as a mortal being.

 

Arvin Almighty

     Everything was odd from the start. The feeling of sudden contentment and the sudden desertion of it have gradually brought me into the world I was once in.  I was just in the high clouds yesterday. I can still feel the cold gentle wind in my arms as I walk down the aisles of eternal joy and endless conquest over the things I have prevailed over in past few days of my life. I was in great desolation and for a while I thought I had something going right in my life. How can fate be so cruel, unkind and insensitive over someone as commendable as I am?

          The sky seems recurring to its original form, its furious winds, wobbly temperament and colossal power over me is slowly eating me up again as I beseech and submit my conviction to you. I just can’t believe it. Now, I understand how life can be very exasperating…how one should not totally trust it. It will never be fair so why brawl it back on an equal footing. Damn it, my mind is clear, I know what I’m doing and I know what I’m saying but I just don’t know exactly if what I’m feeling is right. I trusted you for I know what you can and not do. I gave it all for the glory of your name. I tried everything to change and follow your way which I guess didn’t work just like what you’ve picture it when I decided to finally give in to your dominance.

           Up to know I don’t know what your plans are for me. Everything seems vague and very much unpredictable. But despite that I still and forever will be walking along your guidance and light. I want to believe that this is just one of your divine ways of making me realize that you have better plans for me. With that in mind I know I can overcome any obstacle that might come along my way. But then again, I’m just human, hurting but fighting and will perpetually be surviving. I may have complained a million times but my faith in you remains strong. I know you’re up there watching me every step of this never-ending ordeal and struggle of finding my true happiness.  Someday, I know I can rest writing sad thoughts and make this blog something positive to be proud of, much less freeing me from this confinement only me and you can understand.

         

Stay Awake

        Love truly moves in mysterious ways and when it hit you, it will surely change everything in your life in a snap of a finger. A song about falling in love,  “Stay Awake” gives us a glimpse of how powerful love can be, from the joys to the pains of finally giving in to the feeling.

 

Stay Awake

By: Ronnie Laws

 

Another day, another place 


Another night and you’re not here 


Once again far from home 


All alone to play my song 


I know in just a little while


I’ll be right there to see your face 


But until I can 



 

I stay awake and I want you by my side, baby 


(I stay awake and I want you, baby) 


I stay awake and I want you by my side, baby 


(I stay awake and I want you, baby) 


I stay awake and I want you by my side, baby 


(I stay awake and I want you, baby) 


I stay awake and I want you by my side 



 

In a special way I need your touch 


To fill the warmth that comforts me 


And you know it’s true


All and all I’d rather spend this time with you 


But until I can 



 

I stay awake and I want you by my side, baby 


(I stay awake and I want you, baby) 


I stay awake and I want you by my side, baby 


(I stay awake and I want you, baby) 


I stay awake and I want you by my side, baby 


(I stay awake and I want you, baby) 


I stay awake and I want you by my side, baby 



I stay awake and I want you by my side, baby


(I stay awake and I want you, baby) 


I stay awake and I want you by my side, baby 


(I stay awake and I want you, baby)


I stay awake and I want you by my side 



(I stay awake and I want you, baby) 


Disconnection Notice

I was scared and so alone

Since you left I felt I was thrown

I was suddenly a king without a throne

Now, I can’t even call you my own

 

I decided to move on

Let go of you and start on my own

But it was you who can’t leave it all

Am I dreaming, catch me as I fall

 

I remembered it was so cold

The night you told me I was bold

Enough to handle everything I can hold

How come now, I can’t fit in your mold

 

You treated everything as if it wasn’t a fling

There’s no doubt I felt I really was your king

That’s why I offered you this special ring

Together with this string on this memorable spring

 

True enough you became my queen

A beautiful face I know I’ve never seen

Now, this fairytale we created is over

Set me free so I can start all over

Libra Outlook For 2009

Career, Incomes and Gains


During the initial phase of year, ascendant lord Venus is going over the 5th House. Mars and Sun both are in 3rd house, Mercury, Rahu and Jupiter would be in 4th and retrograded Saturn would be transiting in 11th house. Obviously, planetary configuration is good. Hence, you would be slightly comfortable and successful during the first phase of year. But at the same time, a possibility of change in residence is likely. You may plan to shift in a different city or state. However, this change would be auspicious. Sudden gains via share market would be possible. If you are interested in speculation, you may try your luck. At the work place, you would be much respected and honored. You should ready to get promoted. Overall, this is a favorable period for career and finance. You are optimistic and cheerful and can make others feel good if they are unhappy or depressed, and people enjoy your company now.

You may do many favors for others now, and these will be returned later. This is also a good time to work out the kinks in existing relationships. This period can bring money or other possessions that you value. But it also brings such a feeling of ease that you may spend it all immediately. Try to bear in mind that such wealth will not always come to you this easily. During the middle of the year, you would be facing some sudden troubles and delay in day-to-day pursuits. At work place, rivals would be fully capable to damage your image. Hence, you need to be extra careful. But, the last phase of year would be encouraging. That's why you may enter into new deals.

Love, Family and Social Life

First phase of year is showing some troubles in married life. Possibly, Family atmosphere will remain disturbed. There might be a lack of mutual understating and cooperation. Those are married will face some certain obstacles in relation married life. You would not able to enjoy your conjugal life. Later, during the 2nd and last phases of the year 2009, there is no major trouble is seen. Possibly, middle and end of the year is good in relation of love and married life.

Education and Traveling 


From January 2009 to April 2009, it would be an encouraging period for students. Possibly, Libra born may reap outstanding outcomes. You will get right reward of your hard work. It is very favorable period for study and exams. You are going to achieve your desired destination. You would be praised by your teachers and your parents. However, during the latter phase of the year, you would be experience some troubles in education related matters. Chances of traveling would be good. Probably, these journeys would be of foreign lands.

Health


The first and last phase of the year is favorable in relation of health related matters. But, you need to extra careful during the second phase of the year.