Kakampi

Sorry 'di kita napanindigan
Ako dapat ang iyong sandigan
Maituturing mong isang kaibigan
Kadugo at 'di mo kailangan ilagan

Naging mahina ako at pabaya
Sana 'di na lang ako nagpaubaya
Akala ko naman ikaw ay sasaya
Wala man akong silbi, 'di kita dinaya

Masakit 'yung wala kang magawa
Kahit alam mo nang nakakasasawa
Pakiramdam mo ikaw ay kawawa
Pero nandito ako kahit kulang sa gawa

Ngayon ikaw ay litong-lito
'Di malaman ang anim sa pito
Kahit alam mong marami ang pinto
Dito sa piling ko ikaw ay hihinto

Huwag kang mag-alala
'Di lang ikaw ang may sala
Ako pa rin ang nagsimula
Kaya buhay natin ay lumala

Kapit lang may bukas pa
Alam kong may isa pa
Kaya buhay mo'y ayusin
Huwag kang gagaya sa akin

Up Late

I don't sleep
I only weep
Trying so deep
Longing for that one last dip
To the life I allowed to slip

I stay awake
Not knowing what's at stake
I wanted to stop and brake
But I always break
And make things fake

I listen to darkness
To get rid of this madness
Keeping me away from sadness
Reaching out for gladness
Get me through this blindness

I close my eyes to stop
Every second 'til I drop
I know this is all crap
Wish I can get out of this trap
Free me from this strap

I wait for every morning
Tired and always mourning
Hope one day I'll be singing
Songs that will keep me dreaming
Time to sleep and see what's coming

Sound

      The rain gently falls on a quiet Thursday evening, can you hear it? I screamed for help the other night, did it matter? She didn't say anything at all & still you judged her? The ticking of the clock was all around the room, did you even bother? He said sorry, and you ignored him for life? I cried, did you even give a damn on my tears as they drop on the table?

       Tell me, what sound do you hear? What are the sounds that you only want to hear? It doesn't need to be good or even bad. Just hear it, understand it perhaps? Take time to appreciate because hearing is a gift of life. Listening is how me make the best out of this gift.

       Sadly, we all want to talk & hear ourselves only. This is the inner sound that we already knew. It's human nature but we can do something about it. I want to talk, you want to talk, then let's start listening. It's not only about letting it out, its more on giving everybody the chance to let it all out. Now, can you hear any sound? I'm sure you do because the sound is now coming from your heart and not from your mouth.

Insan

Madilim ang paligid

Pero masugid na nakaupo sa gilid

Kahit nakatagilid ay nakatingin

Tuloy parang mahuhulog sa bangin

'Di maiwasang mapatingin sa mga buhangin

Lahat ng problema gusto mong angkinin

Kelan ka kaya makakalanghap ng sariwang hangin?

Pssst 'di ka ba nagsasawa?

Paulit-ulit wala ka namang ginagawa

Paano giginhawa kung ngawa ka ng ngawa?

Pagkasawi mahirap talagang mapawi

Kung puro awa sa sarili ang namumutawi

Paano ka niyan matatapos at makauwi?

Kung araw-araw pareho ang iyong gawi

Buksan mo kaya iyong mga mata

'Di mo naman kailangan maging makata

Mukha ka tuloy nayuping lata

Lahat may solusyon huwag kang mataranta

Oo alam ko lagi kitang sinisita

Kahit kelan 'di titigil magprisinta

Kailan ka kaya uli makakakanta?

Pag-asa ay nasa isang tabi lang

Tutulungan kitang tumayo kaya please lang

Bumangon ka na diyan

Alam mong 'di kita pababayaan

Kaya sarili ay iyo ding turuan

Kahit pa nga ang isang sirang laruan

Kung pagtutulungan ay muling mapapakinbangan

Halika na wala na 'tong atrasan

Dibdib mo ay laging tigasan

Sarili ay muling bihisan

Pati kalooban mo ay linisan

Dahil tapos na ang kabanata mong minsan

Kamuntik nang sa'yo ay magpalisan

Kaya iyong bilisan, halika na insan

I Can't Stop Lying

      I'm ok don't worry about me. I've been through tough times, and this too shall pass. Writing has helped me survive this ordeal. With words, I can convey clearly what I feel and completely relay all my thoughts and stranges feelings.

      I've never been alone, you're always there for me when I couldn't understand my loneliness. When I don't know why I can't smile, you smiled back at me. When I couldn't figure out how to solve my financial problems, you gladly make fair suggestions and remedies. Truly, when things are slowly falling down again, you're always there to catch me. Without you by my side, I'm nothing. Please don't leave and make me stop lying.

      I haven't changed. I'm still the fearful sinner who hurt you and ruined your life. I'm still in control and will continue to be in control. I feel happy. I feel nothing. I am with you in your loving arms and I just couldn't stop lying!

Pagbabalik

Sa muling pagsikat ng araw
Magandang umaga aking natatanaw
Malinaw sa aking isipan ang mga
bagong pananaw
Na sumasaklaw sa mga nais kong matanaw
Puso ko ay umaapaw
Kahit simpleng pangarap lang ang nangingibabaw

Hindi lahat nabibigyan ng pagkakataon
Ang iba nga bumibilang ng maraming taon
Kahit ngayon ako ay sobrang baon
Pilit na tinutuon para lang makaahon
Ito na marahil ang tamang panahon
Sa pagbagsak ng dahon ako'y muling babangon

Sa iyong gabay Panginoon
Mga kamalian ko kahit pa yung mga noon
Itatapon ko lahat para lang umayon
Basta sana lahat ay sumang-ayon
Kahit pa harangan ng kanyon
'Di ako aayon pagkat sa'yo lang ako
sasang-ayon

Kakalimutan ko ang lahat
Kahit hirap na hirap na sa pagbuhat
Sa pamamagitan nitong mga sinusulat
Maging kayo sana ay mamulat
Dahil patuloy ko itong ikakalat
Sabik nang mga mata ko'y muling maidilat

Oh kay sarap namang yakapin
Sitwasyong matagal mo ng gustong baguhin
Lahat kayang gawin basta't iyong gugustuhin
Pagmamahalan muling pag-ibayuhin
Nang pagsasama nati'y muling pagtibayin
Sa aking pagbabalik kakalma na muli
ating baybayin

Thank You

It's just two words
The most important keywords
You don't need to be good at crosswords
To say these two simple words

For those who deserve it
Tell it straight
Keep it real before it's too late
Extend some love & end
all the hate

It's about time to appreciate
See the real person & feel great
It's a wonderful state
Always keep an open gate

Life is short, always say what you feel
Continue spinning the wheel
For life won't stop from revolving
It will always continue evolving

I won't keep this long anymore
You deserve better, even more
Fate has its way, stay strong
It may seem wrong but in time you'll get along

Two words, thank you
It's the only thing I can give you
For all you've done for us
Remember this too shall pass

True Happiness

They say happiness comes with a price
I've thought of this twice
Unfortunately I only got a slice
Of what it's all about so I rolled the dice
Hoping I would get the prize

Happiness will always be a choice
I tried so hard please hear my voice
All want is to finally rejoice
After many years of sadness
I want an end to this madness

Carry me in your fragile arms
We'll stroll freely along the farm
Breathe the air and then run
I know this is going to be fun
I can smile again & chase
the sun

Every moment spent with you is priceless
It's your kindness that's so endless
Just like this work of art, so timeless
Looking forward with eagerness
In time I'll find my true happiness

Without a doubt you changed my life
So much that I want you to be my wife
Spice it up, forever will be together
Stay closer don't ever linger
Promise I'll put this ring in your finger

Tambay

Sa aking paggising una kong gagawin

Lumabas ng bahay diyan sa may amin

'Di na nakuha pang manalamin

Maghahanap muna ng uulamin

Nakakahiya mang aminin

Ganito ang buhay naming nasa ilalim

Araw-araw sadyang malagim

Sa tatotoo lang nakakarimarim

Sa kanto maghapong nakatunganga

Nakanganga walang laman ang bunganga

Pero ang mas lalong nakakabahala

Kami raw ang mapipinsala

'Pag lumabas, kami na raw ang bahala

Siguradong tampulan ng hinala

Sa kalabaso kami raw ang may sala

'Di ko lang mawari

Mga ganitong pangyayari

Paki paliwanag bakit kami 

ang niyayari

'Di naman kami nagkukunwari

Hirap na sa buhay sa kulungan pa ang hantungan

Oo minsan kami ay batugan

'Di ba nga dapat kami ay tulungan

Tuloy ayoko ng lumabas

Mahirap nang mabalasubas

Mga parak paikot-ikot sa labas

Magpapatubo ng lang ng balbas

Dito sa loob ng bahay alam kong ligtas

Oo minsan kami ay matigas

Pero sa palabas mo Digong sana lahat kami makaligtas

Lahat ng tao ay may karapatan

Kaya mo ba 'yang tapatan

Huwag mo naman kaming tapakan

Alam naming 'di kami uubra ng sapakan

Ganito na lang pag-iisip mo ay lawakan

Ayusin mo ang bayan at huwag mo kaming hawakan

Dito sasaya lahat pati buong kalawakan

Inspired by Sir Joel Saracho and Sir Deo Almazan-Bugaoisan!

Uniquely You

Looking back at my past
I dreamt of you to be my last
Longing for your every touch
Everlasting love as such
No doubt you're an ideal catch

Blind me with all these lies
Uncover me & rekindle our ties
Let time fly, but don't let it die
Awaiting for this rare chance
Hold me I'm in a trance
Away from it all, give me a glance
Now can you still be my last dance?

My Showgirl

Hoy miss oo ikaw miss
Minsan ikaw ay nakakinis
Alam ko ikaw ay makinis
Kaya nga nagtitiis
Sa bawat upload mo walang mintis
Lagi kang kinikilatis

Ano nga bang meron ka
'Yan din ang ipinagtataka
Lahat ng bagay kaya kong isplika
Pero sa'yo parang sirang plaka
Paulit-ulit bakit ka kakaiba
Sige zumba pa malapit na ko sumamba

Wala ka kaseng tigil
Sa gym ikaw ay nakakagigil
Sa pagtagaktak ng iyong pawis
Lahat ng pagod ko naalis
'Di na tuloy makaalis
Sa kinatatayuan ako'y iyong winalis

Pero sa totoo lang minsan
Ayokong makita sana pakibawasan
Mga picture mong kitang-kita ko na lahat
Magtira ka naman 'di 'yan para sa lahat
Sorry 'di ko lang maitago
Mga gusto mong ipakaita sana lahat mabago

Sayang lang kung pagpipiyestahan
Katawan mo at gawing pulutan sa mga kantahan
Baka lang mapaaway at makasuhan
Sa pagtatanggol sa'yo 'yan lang aking kaligayahan
Halika nga ako na lang iyong samahan

Sa sobrang linis
Ng intensyon ko sana huwag
ka mainis
Lahat ng ito gusto ko iyong marinig
Minsan lang ako magparinig
Hoy miss ako ba ay iyong naririnig
Tibok ng puso ko'y sana'y iyong marinig

You and Me

Thirty minutes & it's all gone
Felt like I was shot by a gun
I'm all tied up and I can't run
Been wanting to see the sun
Glad you didn't bring our son

You are my life now
Together will figure it out somehow
This road we are heading
Spread some love & understanding
We can do this keep on standing

Talk to me like before
Let me know the real score
You're all I have open
the door
We have all the time to explore
Get up and stay off the floor

I know It's hard to believe
I should be your hero
But I got us all zero
Life can be so harsh accept it
Tust me I can get out of
this shit

Look at me now
You are my only reason
for living
Guide me & never stop believing
I hope someday you can
be proud
Hear the sound & listen
to the crowd

All my life I wanted only the best
A perfect life for you I want this out of my chest
Continue my legacy & stay pure
Tell the world you found the cure
It's love show them now I'm secured

Belfast

Time moves really fast
I was only dreaming of Belfast
This time it will be a blast
I hope this travel will not be my last

Looking at the landscapes took me to a place
Of new hopes I still feel an empty space
All my life I'm running this race
It's amazing how I still couldn't find a trace

Help me forget your ginger hair
Your almond eyes & that unusual stare
I know you just wanted to be fair
The reason why you ended this love affair

As I wander around I feel your embrace
I could still remember those days
The love we had I still could taste
All I want now is to caress your face

Take me back in time
I couldn't anymore find the rhyme
I would trade anything for a dime
I don't want to end up drinking this lime

Tell me now how would I stop
Dreaming of all these crap
It was once a beautiful thing now I'm trapped
Say something before I drop

I guess the time has come
For me to let go and stop being dumb
I feel so scared and numbed
I'm going home happy of what I have become

Seamless Sight

It all started with the feeling of discomfort
Across the waves along the seaport
It was frightening from a distance
Getting close to you was my only chance
Struggling I held your hand for the last time
Wishing I could be with you for a lifetime

As you close your eyes you whispered
I felt the warmth but still I shivered
You told me how could I possibly lied
I would never do that I gently replied
Then I touched your lips & kissed you goodbye
All the while I thought it was all a lie

She's finally gone
I could see clearly now the sun has shine
The colors are steadily captivating my eyes
It was your eyes that made me
appreciate this site
And because of your beautiful sight
I could now see my divine light

How could I thank you more
I couldn't find the right words anymore
You sacrificed so much I wish I
could give you more
As we bid goodbye to forevermore
Please don't ever close the door
For it's you that I will always adore

Sa Iyong Pagmulat

Sa 'di inaasahang pagkakataon
Makalipas din ang ilang taon
Muli na namang sasaya
Buhay namin muling liligaya
Sa iyong pagdating sana'y lahat mabago
Salamat at ikaw ang magpapabago

Tulog ka lang muna ng mahimbing
Alam kong babalik din ang dating lambing
Huwag ka munang timindig
Lahat pa kami ay maligalig
Puso'y 'di magpantay ang pintig
Konti pa makukuha rin 'yan sa pananalig

Mga tawang nawala dati
Masayang ngiti sana'y iyong iganti
Sa taglay mong kagandahan
Kami lahat mag-uunahan
Sa paghawak sa'yo at pagbuhat
Ikaw na nga ang magbubuklod sa aming lahat

Kung dati ay hiwahiwalay
Halos lahat kami magkakaaway
Nauubos sa walang katuturan mga laway
Kanya-kanya away ayaw magpasaway
Pero sana sa iyong pag-iyak kami'y 'di makasuway
Ito na marahil ang simula ng bukang liwayway

'Di ko alam paano kita niyan pasasalamatan
Lahat iyong ibibigay at wala kang makakalimutan
Salamat 'di mo kami pagkakaitan
Ng pagkakataong muli kaming mabuhay
Kaya lahat sa'yo ay gagawin at iaalay
'Di ito isang alamat, pero sa aming mga
puso mawawala lahat ng lamat kaya salamat

Itay

Alam kong tahimik ka lang
Pero damdamin namin lagi mong isinasaalang-alang
Lahat ng aming pangangailangan
Kaya mong ibigay kung kinakailangan
'Di ka man nagsasalita lagi
Sa aming isipan ikaw lang laging sumasagi

Sa pagmamahal mong walang inaantay na kapalit
Asahan mong 'di ka mawawaglit
Lahat ng bagay na ginawa mo noong kami pa ay paslit
Habang buhay naming isisingit
Ang walang hanggan mong pagmamalasakit
Sulit na sulit tanggal lahat ng sakit

Sa espesyal mong araw
Ikaw lang at wala ng ibang mangingibabaw
Sa lahat ng sakripisyo mo mapa ilalim man o ibabaw
Walang makakaagaw
Pagmamahal nami'y kailanman 'di maliligaw
Itay salamat sa lahat iyan ang aming sigaw

Happy Father's day to all of us! 😊😊😊

Ulan

Sa pagbuhos ng ulan
Puso ko'y unti-unting napunan
Saksi sa saya ko ang aking unan
Taglay kong ngiti kailanman
'Di na matutumbasan nino man

Sige lang huwag kang titigil
Dahil ang aking panggigil
Talaga namang hindi ko mapigil
Sa iyong pagdating lahat tumigil
Kahit pa pigil na pigil ako'y hindi magpapigil

Sa bawat dampi sa aking balat
Saya ko ay kumalat
Kung dati ay salat na salat
Ngayong ay sapat na sapat
Pangako ko sayo'y magiging tapat

Huwag ka sanang magsasawa
Para magtutuloy ang aking tawa
Kung dati ay mukhang kawawa
Ngayon sa awa ng Diyos marami ng nagawa
Lunurin mo pa ko ng iyong pang-unawa

Mahirap mang ipaliwanag
Buhos mo'y aking naging liwanag
Asahan mo hindi ako matitinag
Kahit pa ang araw at kanyang sinag
Walang magagawa ako'y iyong nabihag

Tumigil man ang hatid mong ginhawa
Ikaw ay makakaasa
Pag-ibig ko na ikinakasa
Gawing mong inspirasyon at pag-asa
Simula ngayon hindi ka na muling aasa

Hope

It was late last night
When all my hopes were out of sight
Then with a sleight of fate
In the pouring rain of hate
You came down stunning
Into my life you were running

Things changed from overcast
My skies turned vivid it was fast
My darkest feelings you brightened
I was beaming and enlightened
It was you all along
I was waiting for you for so long

You embraced my fears
You removed all my tears
It was my life you wanted to regain
I was renewed now I'm ready again
Looking ahead come sit next to me
Close your eyes and just hold me

Life has taken me for a ride
Thinking you will never be by my side
But love found its way
To our lives and made us sway
Far from all the hatred it's the only way
Thank God it's a brand new day

Suicide

Sa isang maliit na kuwarto

Tantsa ko mag-aalas-kuwatro

Habang nakatingin sa salamin

Pilit iniisip ng malalim

Buhay kong 'di mawari

Mga pangyayaring mapagkunwari

May pag-asa pa bang marinig

Boses kong wala ng tinig

Tao po pahingi ng konting sandali

Pwede bang sumali 'di naman ako nagmamadali

Sa dating samahang walang kasing tamis

Nakakainis sobrang nakakamis

Pero bakit ngayon tila naglaho

Daig ko pa ang basurang mabaho

Oo nga pala 'di na kailangang magtaka

Ayoko na ring mag-isplika

Tulala at sinasariwa isa-isa

Mga alaala noong ako'y 'di pa mag-isa

Sa isip kong magulo minsan din akong sumaya

Kahit sandali lang bago ako lumaya

Sa lahat ng sakit na aking tinago

Alam kong sasabihin niyong gago

Mga tarantado, 'di ganyan aking estado

Dito sa aking entablado lahat kayo tablado

Ikaw naranasan mo na bang umiyak?

'Yun bang parang nawalan ka ng kabiyak

Gusto mong lumaban, laban lang laban

Pero lahat sila 'di naman tinatablan

Kanya-kanyang puna, sarili 'di mo na makilala

Sila na ang dakila, iwas na lang para 'di lumala

Sitwasyong sa bandang huli kahit pa tama

Alam mong mali pero 'di na kailanman maitatama

Sa pagsikat ng araw, balang araw

Kapag ang mundo handa ng makisayaw

Sa damdamin kong 'di makasabay-sabay

Ni isa walang umalalay, sige kampay 

Oras na lang naman aking hinihintay

Maya-maya lang ay magpapantay

Mga paa kong napagod na kakaantay

Sa pagmamahal niyong nakakamatay

 #AnthonyBourdain #KateSpade 

#Avicii #AllGoneTooSoon

Rock Bottom

     I'm on the top of my game, I had everything I needed before and even more. I never thought I would hit down this hard literally without anything right now. I never imagined I would pray this much and rely on my faith for my everyday survival. Depression, anxiety, addiction and too much of just about everything knocked me off my feet.

      I'm glad, I'm still alive and much closer to my faith and my creator. I'm asking for patience, this is a life-long recovery I would never trade for anything else. It may come a long way, but I'm moving forward. You don't have to trust me, just believe in me.

Rush In Love

It's a fine new day
Can't help but smile thinking of you today
Those brown almond eyes
Soft thin lips and attractive hips
Makes me want to fall, I'm down on my knees

When you stare at me
I feel your soul coming real quick
It's funny that with just one wink
Without a doubt I think
I love you, come join me for a drink

I never imagined that I would fall
You're just one of those I normally call
But it seems the feeling is so strong
This time I know I can't be wrong
I know that we belong I waited for this for so long

Touch me now I'm all yours
Hold my hand and take it slow
Let's keep it down low
Look at me don't lose your glow
Blow slowly as I start this show

I'll forever be grateful
You came and made everything beautiful
Thank you this empty heart once again is full
Promise I won't let go like before
For I will love you forevemore

Bakas

Apat na sulok lang pero 'di makaalpas
Tahimik pero gusto mong lumabas
Mabigat sa loob hininga'y 'di maabot
Isa kang salot dapat kang ibalot at itapon sa laot

Nagsimula sa isang pagkakamali
Sinaktan at iniwan kayong laging nagmamadali
Tinaya pati tiwala niyo at malasakit
Ngayon ang sakit-sakit alam ko naman kung bakit

Akala ko lahat magiging madali
Kahit pa magulo lahat kaya kong itali
Pero sa bandang huli kayo pa rin ang nadali
Sa sangkatutak na desisyon kong mali-mali

'Di ko maiaalis trato niyong nakakainis
Ang sa akin lang handa akong magtiis
Mahirap maging tapat pero dapat
Ito ang nararapat para lahat maging sapat

Bawat minuto inaantay maging segundo
Umaasa na itong aking mundo
Maintindihan kahit na alam kong hindi sigurado
Ito ang bakas na gusto ko nang isarado

Love Mirror

Lately I've been longing
Of a love that is worth keeping
Very few have noticed
Even you nearly missed it

Many times I tried to touch you
Amidst all my fears
Reminding myself its been you
Going through it all
And now I'm ready to fall
Lift me up and remove this wall
Let me in before nightfall
Or reread this & give me a call

My Last Bet

I was all alone in the dark
Confused and out of spark
I thought this would be a walk in the park
A strong messsage I'd love to embark

I was a formidable king
With a graceful queen
In a castle I refuse to embrace
Take me to a place, I want to see my face

Still locked in this dreadful cell
Living like I'm in hell
Crawling and screaming in pain
Wishing one day it will rain

Struggling to rise again
I know I've been insane
Getting everyone in this betting train
Of real terror I can't sustain

Will everyone understand
To where exactly I stand
Or simply walk away and leave
Without giving me one last heave

As I lay all my cards on the table
I'll save my last bet to be able
To prove that I can stand clean and sober
Because this game is all over

Who Wants A Sleeping GOD?

   I do. HE sleeps most of the time when everything is in its proper place. When I'm happy and free, HE rests, then HE sleeps even longer and longer when things are getting worst. I would talked to HIM, and would ignore my every plead. And amidst all these, HIS angels would sing HIM lullabies until HE completely abandons me to sleep.

     Still, I stayed knowing HE'd wake up soon, but HE never did, because HE never slept. I was the one busy sleeping, living on my dreams that everything would be alright without doing anything. I was literally walking on my sleep, ignoring the sunlight of a brand new day HE had prepared for me. My eyes were so closed, didn't see HIM guiding me all the way to where I am now. I was snoring real bad, that I didn't know how to wake up and for the first time in my life, I almost died!

   But now I'm  still alive, and GOD is still awake waiting for me to finally get up from this long sleep. HE never gave up when I almost did. HE watched me go through all these because HE loves me. HE only wants what is best for me. Now things have changed for the better, and now is the best time to thank HIM before I sleep. Thank you GOD for always watching over me and for always keeping me awake from all these madness. I'll keep the faith alive and awake all the time for YOU, my creator.

Only For Joy

Pure and yearning for relevance
Help me overcome this distance
Offer me something I know is constant
Enlighten this room don't leave it vacant
Bring some light and brilliance
In time for this very rare chance
Excited and thrilled to be your last dance

Amidst all these, hear me say
Remember you're my answered prayer
If only I could walk on air
Narrate how we've become a pair
Glowing every second because you care
Obviously for you,now give me that stare