Huling Halakhak

Ilang taon na akong nakakulong

Sa bisyong nakakalulong

Wala naman gustong tumulong

Para ako’y bigyan ng silong

Sana’y pakinggan aking bulong

Ramdam ko ang pag-iisa

Bakit wala man lang nakikiisa?

Kahit man lang paisa-isa

Tuloy laging nababalisa

Nasa isang sulok lang at nag-iisa

‘Di ko akalaing aabot sa ganito

Litong-lito kakahanap sa pinto

‘Di naman ako humihinto

At kahit kailan ay ‘di hihinto

Talaga bang puso mo ay ginto?

Masakit man pero dapat tanggapin

Ang problema kong parang sapin-sapin

Wala akong sinisisi bakit naging alipin

Sa pag-ibig mong ayoko ng isipin

Sige na, sumasakit na aking ngipin

Sigarilyo, droga at alak

Alam mong ‘di ‘yan ang aking nilagak

Pagmamahal ko’y wagas, ayan ang bulaklak

Patunay kung gaano ako kagalak

Basta akin ang huling halakhak

Elevator in Action

Sa opisina ng makita ka

Ako’y biglang nagtaka

Naalala ang paborito kong plaka

Teka nahihirapan na akong iisplika

Nalilito, wala naman akong tangka

Tinawag ka habang naglalakad

Dire-direcho, mukha mo’y kaladkad

‘Di naman ako maaskad

Busy lang kaka-autocad

Ano ba, why are you so sad?

Sayang naman ang ganda at puti

Ng iyung kutis sayo’y unti-unti

Kahit makulong pa sa Munti

Kulay mong sobrang puti

Patuloy na sa aki’y kikiliti

Pero lumipas na ang maghapon

Lumamig na ang sinigang kong hipon

Natuyo na rin pati ang sipon

Magsalita ka naman ng ‘di naiipon

Oh common, here’s my i-phone

Wala na nga yatang pag-asa

Pero ‘di naman ako umaasa

Na sa’yo ay papasa

Isang sulyap lang sana

Na-leche pa, asan na ba siya?

Elevator in action

Ganyan sana lagi ang okasyon

Tapos na ang bakasyon pati nga orasyon

Pinatulan manalo lang sa misyon

Suko na ko wala ng passion that’s my final decision

Bulong

Akala ko’y ‘di na mauulit

Pangarap ng isang paslit

Dahil sa isang saglit

Puso ko’y muling umawit

Sa ganda mo ako’y nabihag

Huwag ka sanang mahabag

Iyan lang aking maiaambag

Saluhin mo bago pa ako bumalabag

Sa mga mata mong mapang-akit

Ako’y iyong nasungkit

Tanong ko lagi ay bakit?

Masakit, pero tuloy ang pagsabit

Ayoko mang isipin

Ako ngayo’y isang alipin

Handa mo ba akong sagipin?

Malabo, ayoko nang pangarapin

Pero malayo ka man sa akin

Puso’y ikaw pa rin ang tatangkilikin

Di mo ba talaga kayang basahin?

Siguro ayaw mo lang akong paasahin

Mahal kita Chelay

Lahat kaya kong ialay

Pati kaluluwa’y ibibigay

Sa kagaya mo handa akong bumigay

Guilty Man

The graceful touch made it happen

The look must be something

But is it the real thing?

Because you are my everything

Desire starts when you appreciate

It may depreciate but linger

And may end with a ring in your finger

Or even exaggerate your anger

Trust is all we need

Don’t start to plead

I have this special bead

Oh common can’t you read?

But no matter what happens

I have my pen

Forget about Ben

Get in the den and be my number ten

Unfiltered Mind

The moment you start expecting something, it’s when all your dreams blow apart right before your very eyes. Believe me, I’ve seen it all. I’ve been wrecked, brutally abuse, blind folded with my hands tied behind my back, figuratively speaking. It’s all the same wherever you go. They say dream high, yes, but don’t expect too much. Problems start here. You never know what you want until you expect something.

So what’s the best thing to do? There’s no other way but to stop dreaming, so not to expect. This may seem the gutless thing to do but in some cases this thing actually works. Thus this mean we can’t reach our dreams anymore? Probably yes, because how can you get into something without actually wanting to reach that place you want to be in? Common think, I can’t think for you guys always.

I dare you to fight. I want you to stop believing. What I’m saying may not work for you so stop reading this piece of junk I’m writing. I know nothing about achieving and winning. This is how the world works for me and being in this room I am right now makes it more difficult for me to convince that yes I may actually help something with what I’m writing. You may want to stop but definitely you can’t. Waiting for some realization in the end? Sorry to disappoint you but this is how I want to end all this garbage, saying nothing, just wanting to take some space in your crowded state of mind. Now, who are you to judge me? You are free to say what you want to say. I may be in the spotlight now but let me tell you this, may letters are powerful than the words coming out of your discontented, shameless and dysfunctional brains that don’t actually work without somebody commanding it to think. This is what you want right? Look, I feel like nobody. Thanks to you!

Never Ever Apologize

1. Never apologize for pursuing what makes you happy. Even if you need to quit your job, transfer schools, or move across country, always do what you really want.

2. Never apologize for using proper English. Keeping it real doesn't mean speaking Ebonics.

3. Never apologize for giving your best in a relationship that just didn't work out.

4. Never apologize for being successful. Only haters want to keep you at their level.

5. Never apologize for crying. Wear waterproof mascara and express yourself.

6. Never apologize for ten pounds you need to lose. People who truly care about you will accept you as you are.

7. Never apologize for being frugal. Just because you save your money instead of blowing it on the latest fashion emergency doesn't mean you're cheap.

8. Don't apologize for being a single Mom. Babies are a blessing.

9. Never apologize for treating yourself to something special. Sometimes you have to show yourself some appreciation.

10. Never apologize for leaving an abusive relationship. Your safety should always be a priority.

11. Never apologize for keeping the ring even if you did not get married.

12. Never apologize for setting high standards in a relationship. You know what you can tolerate and what simply gets on your nerves.

13. Never apologize for saying NO.

14. Never apologize for asking for what you want in bed. If you don't, then who will?

15. Never apologize for wearing a weave or braids. You bought it so it's yours.

16. Never apologize to your new friends about old friends. There's a reason she's bee n your girl from day one.

17. Never apologize for ordering dessert or more than one dessert.

18. Never apologize for dating outside your race. Just because you found Mr. Right across the color line doesn't mean you don't love your brothas.

19. Never apologize for demanding respect. You are to always be treated as a queen.

20. Never apologize for not knowing how to cook. Even if you can't burn like Grandma you know how to order good take out. (Right Girl!)

21. Never apologize for your taste in clothes. It's your style.

22. Never apologize for changing your mind, it is your prerogative.

23. NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR MAKING A DECISION FROM YOUR HEART, EVEN IF OTHERS DON'T AGREE. YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH THE CONSEQUENCES NOT THEM.

24. Never apologize for making more money than your man, you work hard and you deserve to get paid.

25. NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR BEING YOU!