Monday, November 25, 2019

Reversible Love

It's all over
I lied when I told you
I love you
Believe in me
I don't want you anymore
I'm just prentending
I'm happy when you're around
But the truth is
I want you to leave
I was fooling myself that
I need you
Please listen to me
I'll leave you eventually
I lied when I told you
I still love you

(Read backwards)

Sunday, November 24, 2019

Undone

Have you tried closing your eyes?
Do you see the darkness?
Or you simply don't care?
All you can do is just stare

You can't even see me
I'm in your head not in your heart
I'm miserable & it's all that matters
For you I'm just a clutter

Heavily feel my every breath
Feel the pain I want to create
It's late & I haven't slept yet
Something I can't manipulate

Do you actually hear my voice?
Or you only hear a noise?
See I can't even talk
The bitterness...

I'm a scared soul...
The struggle...
You wonder why?
Washing...hands in denial

Stand up while...
I cried once...
...I almost died
Nothing...

 .......
Tell me how to complete
I feel...
Saddest poet ever...

Thursday, November 21, 2019

Qatar Is Love

Nine months ago, I was at the peak of my career having everything under control in a snap of my finger. I was then a Senior Executive Producer for a local television network for 17 years in the Philippines. But fate has its ways of changing our lives when we least expect it. I resigned from my work seeking my real purpose in life and then Qatar happened.

I decided to move to Qatar hoping for a breath of fresh air and I got it. I wanted to live freely and independent from others as I find my happiness in life again. Qatar is love as my title suggests. It’s a haven, a paradise in the middle of nowhere ready to share its marvel and beauty to my lost soul. I was amazed by its conservative culture and religious Muslim beliefs. The Qataris were very accommodating and though the heat is scorching hot, its warmth carried me throughout this life-changing journey that I always wanted to happen.


Life in Qatar is beautiful but tough. Getting a job despite my years of experience is not a guarantee. I had a few stints in two companies and I was looking for more. But despite all the challenges, the journey of landing that dream job continues. I’m ready to endure what Qatar has in store for me just like surviving the heat of the sun here, I will survive. Managing my expectations is one thing I learned here. Qatar in an instant changed how I view life because here you are on your own. You have no one to rely on but yourself. Independence is a must, a trait that I truly embraced that is so evident among Qataris. Along with this is also faith which embodies Qatar’s rich religious Muslim heritage. I’m so blessed to have experienced Ramadan for the first time. It’s unbelievable how the Qataris value so much their religion. I saw their dedication and sacrifices during this time that made me look after my own Catholic faith. It’s a surreal feeling of divine intervention that changed me and made me hopeful that in time, I’ll find my real purpose in life.

I haven’t seen much of Qatar and I’m excited to discover more about it. I’m ready for change and more than willing for more changes to happen in the days to come. Qatar will always be love, and I love life. I’m happy to continue my journey here and eventually be happy again.


The GCC Crisis


The worst is yet to come?

It has been two years since the Gulf Cooperation Council (GCC) crisis ignited and it shows a little sign of ending any time soon. Saudi Arabia, the United Arab Emirates (UAE), Bahrain and Egypt who cut their economic and diplomatic ties with Qatar by imposing a land, air and sea blockade are firm with their positions of isolating the latter from the rest of the Middle East. Though the crisis has meddled down a bit, the tension among these Arab countries continues in silence as they all struggle to combat the effects of this massive turmoil.


But for Qatar, life must go on. Since the rift worsened they slowly established their independence from Saudi Arabia and the rest of the Arab countries. It modernized its domestic front by building infrastructure and even raising the standard of living of its citizens in just two years. Its vast reserves of hydrocarbon remain to be Qatar’s greatest source of survival in overcoming the aftermath of the crisis.
On the other hand, the ‘anti-terror quartet’ of Saudi Arabia, UAE, Bahrain, and Egypt continue to strengthen their alliances economically to get hold of the lion’s share in the region. By merging their economic and financial stabilities, their political and security objectives will reign supreme over other international allegiances. But as the blockade continues, we now wonder? Where will this crisis lead us?

Change is inevitable, this may seem far from being over, the way things are developing this will definitely change the landscape of the Middle East deserts in no time or has it did? As long as all countries involved will not arrive at a simple diplomatic compromise or anything equivalent to it, the GCC conflict will continue forever. The world landscape will also be affected as these countries try to get worldwide support at any cause to sustain their economic supremacy and protect their countries’ interests. Allegiances of countries may rift apart the world in two and things will never be the same again.
The crisis will stay. It will go on and the least that these countries can do is to continue to adapt until the whole problem is eradicated and compromising will never be an option again. Wealthiest countries like Saudi Arabia and fast-rising Qatar will continue to dominate the world with their alliances like the United States of America to name a few, just a step behind all their motives and worldwide agendas. Now, that is something to look forward to.