Wednesday, May 1, 2019

Help in Help

Today, I felt once again the anger I used to manifest when I was out of control before. My self-confidence was down, self-pity was high, my mind is working like a well-oiled machine for disaster and my urge to get back at someone right away were all struggling to get out of my system. But two people made me realise that I am human after all and that life can be bad at times, but it could get better!

The first person is about to lose his job in two weeks time. He has literally nothing on his pocket now and is uncertain about his future. But he is calm. He smiles a lot and remained positive that eventually he'll get work again. He has no complains about his situation and is patiently waiting for his time to come again.

The other person had a bad day. His whole salary was eaten up by the bank due to his loans. Life is also hard. He has financial obligations of his own too and is struggling to make both ends meet. But despite all these, he remained cool and even offered help to this first person I mentioned above. Giving a simple dinner for his friend in need and a couple of bucks to get him through the next days, is truly remarkable. I was touched. Giving a helping hand when you yourself is also in need of help is extraordinary.

This was a wonderful scene that made me think, is my anger worth it? Are my complains on life valid? Do my self-pity matters? If they can be positive about life, then why can't I be like them? I'm a recovering asshole and I choose to remain on the the right track. Thank you, my hope in humanity is restored once again even for a day!