Finally after months of hibernating, I now have the courage to write again. It’s been a long while since I last put an entry on this blog. Nothing has really changed. I’m still the same old sentimental freak emotional writer who always wanted to be heard. Times were hard in the last few months, what do you expect. Okay for a while I thought I’ve seen the light but no, it’s just a temporary breathing ground for survival.
How will I put this? Life continues to be a burden and as always will forever be the same. I just don’t know if in time I can somehow free my mind of the same old sentiments that keeps on haunting me. For a while I thought I found her but it’s just a reality I know I can’t handle. She’s nice but she’s not it. She’s not the one who can complete me. I have no regrets of loving her but as they say reality bites. Same old issues, my time, my personality, her personality. It just won’t fit.
Now, I’m here again escaping the vicious reality of finding the real one person who can make me feel I’m real as I am. I have no intentions of hurting her but its better to leave things this way not to aggravate and hurt more in the future. I still would want to settle that’s one thing for sure but the question remains, with whom? I know you’re just around the corner. Take your time; my door is always open for you. I don’t know when but for sure this very important time will come to finally free me from all these despair and misery. I deserve to be happy that’s why I keep on believing and breathing!
